My
time at CSI was turbulent to say the least. There were moments of pure
excitement inspired by professors and the people I’ve met at the school, but
the research project in which I worked with Professor David Gerstner and my
great friend Lauren McKenna led to the culmination of some of my favorite
people and work. If you had asked me when I had first started my academic
career at CSI, I would have never thought I would have even begin to openly
identify under the LGBTQ umbrella nor would I have thought I would have
invested a significant part of my time as a student researching and studying so
many social issues in America.
Brian posing after being told to "look like a smart person." |
In
fact, I never entirely intended on pursuing this research myself. It was a day
like any other when Lauren had come up to me and said “I put your name down to
work on a research project with me and Professor Gerstner.” At the time I had
spoke to Dr. Gerstner maybe once or twice, but I didn’t have any idea of what I was
getting in to. I just said “sure.” That sort of became my identity over my last
two years at CSI -- saying yes to the little projects and endeavors that people
had asked me to get involved in. This “little project” turned out to be a bit
more than that.
We
didn’t have a clear thesis from the get-go. All I knew, is that Lauren and I
were in similar situations with how we were sexually identifying, and being
able to invest our time into researching why LGBTQ people have certain stigmas
and stereotypes was something that tied incredibly well into our interests. Eventually, after literally weeks of deliberation on
what our thesis should be -- and a few times being rejected by Dr. Gerstner for
being “too broad” -- we settled on researching how animated films have perpetuated gay stereotypes. Specifically, we examined children’s films, because people are socialized at a very young age on what
to expect from the greater society. We spent nearly two months researching
LGBTQ history and watching animated Disney films highlighting when LGBTQ
stereotypes could be construed by an audience and how that influences other
films and audiences. The expectations for where gay people were “allowed” to be
in films became clear as patterns and trends began to form.
It
was almost exciting to find real ideas and concepts related to the grander
scheme of LGBTQ representation that weren’t exactly uncovered in the way we
were uncovering them. It felt new, and while our research was preceded by
others, we found new ways to integrate these concepts with other concepts. This
was the only undergraduate research project I had gotten involved in, and part
of me even regrets not doing more of them. I got closer with Dr. Gerstner and
Lauren because of it, and gave me life-long academically-inclined friends that
shared many common interests with me.